Things that make me go hmmm...

[greatbear]

I often wonder what I am doing with this blog thingie. These days it is mostly a placeholder for me to interact with others on my friends list. I dont see myself as any sort of 'blogger' in the grand sense, nor could I even approach the level of, say, Joe.My.God. I guess this is more of just my tiny window on the world where I can spout my nonsense, talk about things that matter to me and people I am close to. Still, I often get those spells where I think, "Why am I doing this?".

Welcome to one of those spells.

I already went through that pointless exercise of deleting my journal a couple years ago. That was foolish, and would be still. Perhaps I will find my voice here some day, Or I might already 'have it', it's just that I cannot see it. There must be something going on, however. I checked my 'friends list' for the first time in quite a while, expecting to see some departures. On the contrary, a few new faces have shown up, so there must be a reason. Genuine interest? Schadenfreude? Comic relief? Kindred spirit? Therein lies the conundrum. My activity on these pages must pique people's interest, the question being, what exactly? I have a lot of readers, yet by comparison, not much commentary.

So, I put it out to my readership. What brings you to my outpost in cyberspace? I like to think a crowd gathers for a good performance, then again, crowds gather at trainwrecks as well. Please, leave a comment, and be honest. Especially if you are new, or don't usually comment here. I'm very curious.

Comments

[kymutt.livejournal.com]

Well, lemme see. Why do I venture forth to your lil piece of cyber-terra? I'll be honest. When I first added you, I went through my usual "WOOF, nice icon, interestin' profile phase." After that, I read what you wrote because some of it I found interestin', some amusin', but all was all you. I appreciate honesty. Then, when you endured your losses last year, I saw a good man in pain. I wanted to at least extend a cyber-hand and letcha know I wished you well. Simply stated, I liked you at first, STILL like you, and hope you keep postin'. You've got at least one pair of eyes lookin' over your words.

[sfmini.livejournal.com]

Sharing experiences and emotions. Despite some obvious differences in the extent of the issues, a lot of the same feelings and life lessons came to both of us this year. Shared interests in home, computers and cars. Enough to make me stop and read whenever I come across your entries.

[carytown.livejournal.com]

It's a great question. Don't have an answer. Don't think there really is one other than perhaps we have managed to find ourselves in cyberspace much as we may find our friends and acquaintances in real life. But cyberspace is real isn't it... You're a real person aren't you?? :) Welcome to the 21st century.

[reslbear.livejournal.com]

Buddy, you don't have to say anything profound. I just like hearing where you are. I like you and Jeff both immensely and I want to hear the little shit as well as the big shit.

You do what you will but I wan't stop looking for you. Someday I hope to meet you both.

[ciddyguy.livejournal.com]

Well, I think you added me first and after a post or two, I added back and have enjoyed much of what you write. You, like me are honest and at times to the point, which I find refreshing.

I do feel for you and do want you to know if I haven't already said so that I'm here, reading and caring. Some of what you are going through, I have experienced so know where you are coming from on many levels.

[bigreddee.livejournal.com]

Long time reader and admirer. ;) Personally, I can't say. Sometimes, it's just checking in. Sometimes it's like listening to a voice you can't see but just...registers. You seem like good people...that's enough for me.

I know what you mean about one of those moods. Ever since I haven't been able to journal whenever the mood strikes, I've felt really distanced from the whole thing. I can't comment immediately, and later on I have to revisit so many other things just to keep up and stay connected.

[bearlover.livejournal.com]

You're the only bear I know that likes prog as much as me.

[baeritone.livejournal.com]

I read you for three reasons, Phil.

1.) I miss you and this is a way of keeping up with you.
2.) You've been my friend for a long time, and I love ya. :)
3.) Only you say things even snarkier than the things I say with such thought. :)


So don't go away. You're one of the things helping me through the day right now. :)

[fingertrouble.livejournal.com]

Your articles / take on copyright, and your honesty.

why Dave (luvin) reads your journal

[(Anonymous)]

i read your journal cuz i miss and luv ya baby... and since you are SOOOOOO lame at answering e-mail or anything, it keeps me posted on what's going on with you. i keep in touch with your better half, so not missing much on his end, but YOU... YOU... you're just intriguing as always and so analytical about things that it keeps me interested... some days it's the good performance, some days it's the trainwreck but, as good friends should, luv ya through good and bad.

[arktos62.livejournal.com]

What drew me to you was what draws me to most bloggers, or indeed any writers: you express yourself well.

[champdaddy.livejournal.com]

I've been tempted to ask the same questions in my journal.

You don't always have to be profound... your personality comes across in even the most mundane post. I like the idea of connecting with you, and I probably don't let you know often enough.

Re: why Dave (luvin) reads your journal

[baeritone.livejournal.com]

OMG....it's luvinmullets! :)

[fjdbear.livejournal.com]

Well, I know you and Jeff from the old gaycom days. And you have integrity and a soul and I deeply related to your feelings in the last year. But that's a personal thing with me.

For me, I dont care if I get one reply. I just read, and if I feel like saying something I do. I basically use my LJ to just jot down something that crosses my pea brain.

I dont think you asked for this but...I LOATHE those that think they need to be in some sub-group of A-Listers on this thing. Or feel the need to tell people how popular they are, by name dropping all the time. Or to use this to get sex dates.
Or to sell their services or goods. Like whatever they make, or photograpic services, etc. I've made commissions (two) through friends on here, but a little of that goes a long way.

Peace

[psuweightlifter.livejournal.com]

Most of us on LJ don't have a huge responding readership, e.g. plenty of readers. I enjoy reading blogs of other peoples. It's the voyeuristic tendencies in me. For you, I've met you at Bear happy hour in hbg and I'd like to know you better. I'm a scientist, I like to observe and you are a very interesting person.

I have very few comments in my blog. I decided recently it's not about getting comments, it's about taking your ideas, feelings, and whatnot and putting them down on paper, well, in this case magnetic media. I view this as my personal journal that I allow others to read. I have a few posts that I put on totally private so it's just for me. Usually angry times that I just want to vent to myself and not the world. So in the end, I think writing blogs is a great way for personal reflection.

[excessor.livejournal.com]

I never expect anyone to be profound—even Confucius just scratched his ass every once in a while and ate doritos in front of the TV.

I come back to your blog because you express yourself well and I get a strong sense of humanity from you. By that, I mean that I like the feeling I get from you of a man who has thoughts and feelings and can say something about them.

Not everyone can do that. I hope you continue to do so.

[liftinmoose.livejournal.com]

Your blog actually had a pretty big role in forming my own. It's always honest and direct. You didn't use this as a gallery of your creation or an exercise in literate masturbation. You write down what you need to voice. Everytime I see your post, I know it's something you're going through or feeling, and I know I'll get to know you a little bit more.

[m-f-patterson.livejournal.com]

through your journal I find a person that is "human" emotional, funny, interesting and most of all, genuine!

[devcubber.livejournal.com]

I am a fairly quiet blogger, and mostly I read but seldom comment.

I like you because you seem familiar, and genuine and comfortingly human.

That's what draws me back.

[matblue.livejournal.com]

Well, its not like a comic book, or a schadenfreude. Its more like exploring what someone else is going through, compare it to yrself in a way or another. It is a kind of consolation by all means.

[fjdbear.livejournal.com]

"I have a lot of readers, yet by comparison, not much commentary."

A hem?