Now what?

Ever get that sinking feeling that something is really wrong? Well, I'm right in the midst of it right now. While having my ct scan done Thursday the technicians seemed to have spent an unusually long time from the time my scan was done before the one came in and said I was done. She was a bit uneasy compared to when I had arrived, saying that my doctor should have the results for me the next day or Monday. Okay, fine. I've had plenty of ct scans done before, and those times when there was nothing truly serious, things moved along lightly and rather brisk. While at work on Friday I get not one but two messages on the machine here at home urging me in for a follow-up visit, one from the staff, one from my doctor. He too seemed a bit more serious in tone than usual. More red flags. Does not help that a couple days ago I had a bout with the most serious nosebleeds I have ever had. Not sure exactly the cause, but I am assuming I bopped myself in the face when I was startled awake by the phone in the middle of the night. My nose hurt like it was hit, then the blood started flowing. And flowing. And, yes, I was alone at the time. Anyone who has slept with me (hush now) knows that I am a kicking, twitching squirmfest in my sleep. My nose would start bleeding again, taking 20 minutes or more to stop. Five or so occurances of this. It's been okay now for the last couple days.

You know? I really dont need anything else truly serious like this in my life, especially when it comes to my own health. I don't "sick" well at all. I help others when they are sick. I prefer to remain alone when I am ill.

Maybe it's nothing. Maybe it's something truly awful. I'm hoping for the former. I'll be expecting something approaching the latter.

Geekery V.1.2.1.6

A quick post from the resurrected studio/'main' computer while in the midst of repairs and upgrades. I tore it down and replaced several blown capacitors on the (now obsolete) motherboard. A blast with the air compressor and a quick reassembly to see if it fixed the BSODs and flaky operation, or killed it for good. So far, so good. So, the next steps are a replacement of the coolant (it's watercooled), a replacement hard drive for the failed D: drive, and a swap of the video card. In the meantime I will let it cook overnight to sweat out the repairs and see if they hold (and to finish some Bittorrent, ahem, 'goodies'). It's good to have my beast back. Just dont let on to it that a replacement monster is currently in my lab being born.

I have a huge pile of CDs to burn, others to rip into the library array and need to update my iPod as well.

Beware, as there will be more upcoming geekery posts as conditions here warrant.