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[greatbear]

Jeff is up at the bonfire, socializing and enjoying himself. I'm back at the campsite with only Kodi as company. I thought I could make it, but my thoughts and memories got the best of me again.

Tomorrow marks two years since I lost my Mom to cancer. I still miss her greatly. This does not get any easier, but I guess I am learning to cope with the feelings of loss as the days roll on. Keeping to myself for a while helps I guess. I just want Jeff to enjoy himself to the fullest while we are here. For the most part, I am too. I just need my own space now and then.

That's the cool thing about Hillside. It can be whatever you make it. Tomorrow morning I might talk a walk to the Memorial Gardens they have here. It's a truly solemn place, dedicated to partners, friends and family of visitors that have been lost through the years. It's a cathedral in the woods itself. Anyone who experiences it gets choked up. Or more. I'm sure I will really be in the latter category.

Comments

[excessor.livejournal.com]

I think this is how it works. Learning to cope in a world without a loved one is one of the hardest lessons. There's nothing wrong with needing alone time. And of course, crying always helps.

[danthered.livejournal.com]

Yeah. What ↑ he said. *Hug*

[wrascalism.livejournal.com]

I understand what you're going thru. All I can offer is more HUGS!

[shake-it-up.livejournal.com]

I thought of you (and me and many men who were older when they lost a particularly beloved parent) today, listening to Patrick Hemingway talk about his father. http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=91993806

He is still close to his father's memory, still remembers incidents from when he was an infant through his father's death. And he mentions that at 80, it is still difficult (ell it was early, you can listen yourself for the exact feeling.

I thought it was very moving, instructive.

Anyway, I hope you can relax and have a great weekend. Remembering your mom will always be part of that.

[djmadadam.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

[normalcyispasse.livejournal.com]

Loss of a family member is devastating. I'm having a hard time with the loss of Andrew, not only from my side but from my wife's. I think it will never fully go away.

[scorpioatl.livejournal.com]

I hope your cathedral in the woods is cathartic. Being surrounded by nature always makes me feel better. Hugs big guy.