Going in gay/xmas ruminations

[greatbear]

I didnt call in gay today. Why? Well, kinda tough to do that to a company that worked very hard to earn a 100% rating from the HRC in terms of being a gay friendly place of employment. And hell, I got to take Jeff with me to hobnob with Cyndi Lauper and the B-52s on their dime a few years back. So, I think it would have been a tad counterproductive. Besides, I pulled their asses out of yet another fire with my dazzling feats of tech-fu once again. Another multi-million dollar program flies thanks to me. I rawk.

Our Xmas tree now has it's first present docked under it, still in it's shipping box from Amazon.com. Jeff has no idea what it is either. He still asks me what I want as a gift. I have no idea. It's not that my wish list is nonexistent. It's just full of things that are, well, pricey. A Canon 5D Mk II DSLR, a Miller TIG welder, a Denon AVR-4308CI receiver, a to-be determined bigass plasma television, a Snap-On SOLUS diagnostic computer, etc, not exactly stuff I can whip out the plastic and tote home without making serious dents in savings. Besides, they arent really that personal. I'll get my goods in time, as I need and warrant them. I dont ask for any presents simply because I feel uncomfortable doing so. In my case, I like to be giving year-round. I dont need a holiday full of crass commercialism to have an occasion. What I do enjoy is good food, togetherness and friendship during the holidays. It's what I grew up with, and what means the most to me. Sadly, I feel left out of it a lot these days. Things happen to get in the way, and, honestly, I have not been included in much of it among friends for a while now. Cannot figure out why. Do I smell bad? DO I not smell bad enough? I thought I stopped being a social lout in my teens. A lot changed when I lost Mom, and in many ways. Still, I hold onto hope all the time, and I try to do up the holidays like I used to. And I find my happiness.

Comments

[dougoros.livejournal.com]

I'm the same as you with the gift list thing AND Day without gay.I finally relented and gave Rich some ideas for gift cards to put toward the purchase of some big buck items. They are things for the house ....new flat screen for the living room and new gas grill for outside etc .Rich is much easier to buy for, and my salary makes it much easier for me.....I also get to see him LIGHT UP with joy when he opens his main gift.....
As far as the gay day thing, I too am out at work and buried under responsibilities ....in fact it's more fun being the gay guy especially in the winter when there are 20 odd "rednecks" living here.....My company has treated me very well over the years so disappearing for a day would just be rude....and they wouldn't notice anyway cause our head office....where my boss, the exec. v.p. works....is an hour away.......
We both hope your Christmas turns out to be what you want...

[showmegrizz.livejournal.com]

Tell Jeff you want HIM for Christmas... a short vacation away, so heavily scheduled at his work, that he couldn't possibly be called in to cover. THAT'S something you said you wanted before... maybe you should ask for it.

Just a thought.