Fuckitall

[greatbear]

Okay, I started to write a (to me) meaningful post with some updates and such, but I had to constantly go back and correct serious spelling mistakes (usually not a good sign), and I began to get frustrated. After a bit of a break, I came back and looked at what I had been composing earlier. Unless the cat walked across the keyboard in my absence, I had no explanation for the unintelligible gobbledygook I was now reading. Exasperated, I wiped it all out and walked away. I spent a little bit of time on some social networks and was having the same problem. I had to edit comments that made me look like a dunce or a protest sign maker for right-wing political marches (I know, redundant). I know the new pain meds might have a part in this, and my general frustration with my current pain and immobility just might be getting the best of me. I've decided to remove myself from social interactions of all kinds for the time being, I have no use for the general public right now, and until I get some relief from my current condition, I think it best to make myself scarce. It's taken me about three times to go back and correct even this little rant, and that tells me it's time to quit. I can't say when or if I will return here or to my few remaining social outlets.

I've had just about enough of my life right now.

Comments

[mrdreamjeans.livejournal.com]

Phil, I hear your anger and frustration, but please rethink this decision. I will miss you terribly.

[maxauburn.livejournal.com]

I would miss you a lot if you left.
Life isn't perfect, not the one we get.
I hope you will stay.

[redmoonriver.livejournal.com]

sending you love, hon. I wish I knew what I could do to help. :-/

[rcfozzie.livejournal.com]

Sending good thoughts your way and hoping you can find some peace.

[vicar.livejournal.com]

I'll look forward to your return - break if you have to, but I've appreciated the updates - even the unhappy ones. Thinking of those eyebrows...

[furr-a-bruin.livejournal.com]

Take care of yourself.... Here's hoping you can return here soon.

[ciddyguy.livejournal.com]

Chiming in as well. Please, if you need to break, great, do it as we all need to have a break every now and then.

That said, people enjoy your interactions here and it's getting to a point where it's just literally a handful of people that post here on a daily to semi daily bases in my friend's feed. This despite the so called uptick in action here on LJ.

Hugs my friend.

[huxbear.livejournal.com]

Its not much, but [[snuggs & rubs]]...

[tonethbone.livejournal.com]

Take you time...we will still be hear

[mort-83.livejournal.com]

Phil, I will miss you. I hope you stick around.

And that offer still stands you know.

Hang in there buddy.