Break time

[greatbear]

He's seen too much of life
And there's no going back
The loneliness calls him
And the edge which must be sharpened
He's losing it. And he knows.
But there's a fighter in his mind and his body's tough
The years have been unkind but kind enough


I think I am going to take a bit of a break from LJ for a while. I'll be reading friend's entries and most likely commenting (as I usually do, hey, I love you guys). I believe, however, that I need to step back for a couple days so as to not be reactionary in my entries.

Think of it as my own mental defrag & optimize session. My head is one hella huge drive array though, and I need to do some thinking. And rethinking. Even the title of my post has a dual meaning.

My country is changing, and the way I see it, it's not for the better. I fear for my country, my home, my friends and family, and myself. Discrimination and it's underlying hatred is being codified in state constitutions and will probably be attempted again to add it to the U.S. Constitution. It just may succeed, who knows. All I know is that such rampant 'conservatism' (an ironic term that sits like a big lie in it's true meaning) fosters an environment that gives tacit approval to various acts of aggression against those who don't follow their way of thinking or fit their standards. People will suffer increasingly in mental and physical ways. Some of those people will die.

He remembers the day he was marched to the front
By the physical knuckle head teacher of games
“Look lads” he declared, "This boy's a cream puff
No guts and no muscles
No spine and no stuffing"
The whole schoolroom sniggered
And silently thanked God it wasn't them..

But time is revenge. All the bullies grow weak
And must live with faithless women who despise them
I'll be in Barbados in a couple of weeks
With a rum on the table and yarns by the yard
A story to tell and a story to save
..unless she changes her mind
I'll trade them this morning for my sweet Ocean Cloud
I've seen to much of life so the sea is my wife
And the sweet ocean clouds will look down on my boat tonight.


Corporations will gain rights and priviledges while individuals will lose them. It's already happening over the years, and it's accelerating at a geometric rate. Division by class will grow into a huge chasm. More than ever, there will be 'haves' and 'have nots'.

People will be led by fear, and corralled by uncertainty. Terrorism will remain as a constant backdrop, even if it's very unlikely. And it will be the vehicle that will be used to pick apart our freedoms and erode our liberties. Disagree, and you will be labelled unpatriotic.

The wind changed
I felt it run beneath my ear
Like silk drawn across my neck
A dream of your legs
Defying gravity in love

The medium wave
Brought signals here from far away
Your tender voice riding on the sea spray
Something in the air
For those who know the signs
Something in the air
A storm...

I do know that I have to make some changes. I've sit quietly in the background for a long time, and it's allowed some individuals to foster beliefs and prejudices against a faceless, ambiguous 'threat'. I need to give that so-called threat a face. It's indeed someone they know. Or at least not someone they would ever imagine. I need to confront hypocracy head on, illustrate the pointlessness of certain dogma and inherited beliefs. People need to stop devolving. Courage and knowledge are incredibly powerful weapons. Weapons for change. For the better.

Watch me watch me
Paint this picture
Stretchin Hurtin Cursin
Watch me
Takin it Takin it Takin it Takin it....
Watch me. Watch me. God above..

Between two planets
In between the points of light
Between two distant shorelines
Here am I

Between two planets
In the black daylight of space
Between two heavenly bodies
The invisible man.
Ripping out the radio
I want to be alone

I took a few moments to write out my feelings tonight while at my usual routine of listening to music, headphones on, and in my own little world. Some chance occurance of my random picking of music gave my entry here a powerful soundtrack, so I thought it helpful to edit my entry and punctuate my post with lyrics from the song.

I still hold hope for the best in humanity and all that it can offer, but sadly I feel a few steps backwards will still remain to be taken before the slow, 'neo-renaissance' can begin. It's somehow hard-coded into our beings, but historically it seems that some rather sizeable adversity must occur to trigger the new forward progress.

I have to figure out what my role in that should be.

Comments

[greatbearmd.livejournal.com]

I often feel similarly, but I think the best we can do is (to steal a couple popular phrases) stay the course, create change from inside and prevail. Policy based largely on ideology often crumbles from the weight of that ideology. We are better than those who are trying to ruin what we got/want.