Decisions, decisions...

[greatbear]

Here once again I sit before my LJ with nothing of interest to write about. 99 percent of the time I read those in my friend's list and occasionally comment, but usually I am living life vicariously through the people here; actual friends and those whom I have never met (yet). My life, especially in recent weeks, is not worth documenting, it's mostly me on disability taking care of mom, and Jeff working, with very little in the way of notable goings-on. I don't bother with memes anymore, especially since some find them annoying and most recently the spyware fiasco with Quizilla. I dont want to bore people with minutiae, I prefer not to send deeply personal or private events into a public forum. I doubt people would be interested in the rebuilding of some small engines I have been involved with, the ants that are currently attacking the studio desk or the rapidly-overgrowing-with-weeds yard and gardens I am unable to tend like I need to.

So, it's come down to this... should I bother continuing with my Livejournal, or should I put it on indefinite hiatus, if not delete it altogether? I still want to keep in touch with the many fine folk here, as well as read and occasionally comment in all the fantastic journals that everyone keeps here. To do this in it's current form requires a journal of my own and a friend's list, unless I leave 'anonymous' comments (I dont want to do this). Recent entries by me rarely get reciprocal comments from me when others leave them, and that deprives my journal of the interactivity I would otherwise like to have within.

I think it best that I use this particular entry as a poll of sorts to those who catch my postings. Should I stay, or should I go? More precisely, should I just continue as I have been, with a rather stale, rarely updated journal, put it on 'hold' of sorts while I deal with other issues with the hope of getting back into it, or should I pull the plug on the whole thing? Please be honest, and let me know your feelings.

I guess the main thing I am concerned with is that I see this as my offerings to my friends, a place I can rant or rave, and most of all a place that I can interact with what I have found to be an incredible group of people. I have made many friends here that I hope to see in person one day, and for that I am thankful. But friendships, whether in real life or in a textual base such as this, require energy and activity to cultivate and grow, something that in the past several weeks I just have been unable to come up with. Because of this, I feel truly awful.

The ball's in your court.

Comments

*hugs*

[leatherotter.livejournal.com]

I know I'd like to see you stay. I might not be able to do much more than offer virtual hugs but I do find it comforting to keep tabs on what's going on so that I can offer what little support I have. Maybe it's selfish of me but, as I watch my own life spin in and out of control, it brings me some satisfaction to take my turn as a Bounty® Shoulderpad Sponge™ for those I care about. ;)

Or would that be a Bounty® iWipe Sheet™ - the Quirky Quicker Picker-Upper?

Anywho, dorkiness aside, you're welcome to stay in my friends list. :)

[bookish-cub.livejournal.com]

I'd like to see you continue with your journal, but if it's not something you're enjoying then you should probably stop for a while.

[excessor.livejournal.com]

I enjoy reading your journal. Even if you don't post often, you might still feel like making an occasional entry. My advice is to keep your journal, update it when you feel like it, read when you feel like it, but don't feel obligated to do anything.

I hope you stay.

[nytemarewulf.livejournal.com]

I agree with the consensus, in that update when you feel like doing it. Don't worry about it if you don't. Look at mine, I hardly ever write anything on there. *grins* But I do keep track of my friends on here, and I'd like to be able to keep reading whatever you decide to post. *hugs*

[kjvbear.livejournal.com]

it is up to you, but I think you should stay. I enjoy reading your journal, and if you get pleasure out of just reading ours, thats fine too. Update when you can, even if it be mundane things. It is still a way not only to keep up with everyone one else, but for you to look back at later and say, "Oh yeah, thats what was happening back then."

[beg1n.livejournal.com]

What I enjoy about doing this is that it doesn't require constant attention IF you don't want it to. Even if you pull back a little, your name is still here for us to see. I find comfort in that.

[dakoopst.livejournal.com]

Do NOT pull the plug on the whole thing. I've just started getting to know you, and would like to get the chance to do so further.

If you feel you need a hiatus, take it; we all need a break sometimes.

Or, you can simply write what happens and know that your friends will be interested in just that -- you. When you don't have the energy to GIVE, just BE, and let your friends be there to support you. You don't have to constantly write inspirational prose; sometimes just making it through what life has to offer is inspirational enough.

Here's hugs to you, sir.

taking a break

[fuzzbearmark.livejournal.com]

You may want to set this aside for a while - but I wouldn't delete
the journal - just let it go for a bit.

You may feel like picking it back up after a while,
or you may decide at a later time to delete it.

Best to you at this time, buddy.
*Hugs*
MARK "fuzzy"

[cutepacub.livejournal.com]

i agree with everyone else bud....this is the one place i can usually keep up with the happenings of my friends, no matter how mundane they are!

hope things get better soon!!!

hhhmm....do i need to come down there and pull weeds??

[clickboo.livejournal.com]

You should stay. Write if the mood strikes you. Don't write if you don't want to. And it would be cool to see you in person. Especially since you're not that far away. :)

[jrjarrett.livejournal.com]

I'm new to your journal, and I really enjoyed your description of the Snake run, being a big car geek myself....

You said it yourself, you haven't had the energy the past few weeks, for good reason. Stick around. Post when you can.

[baeritone.livejournal.com]

As the one who got you started on this, I apologize that it has become a source of tension for you, instead of a release as it was meant to be.

This site is many things to many people, but the thing that I've noticed it is most often for people is catharsis. You have to decide if that's what you want out of it, or if you simply want to post odd ideas that occur, or just not post at all. It's your journal; it's your business.

I will say that I will miss these postings of yours if you go. Silence had begun to grow between us before I sent you the key for your own journal; this site helped bring us back together. I fear that it will begin to grow again if you go - especially now that we live so much farther apart.

I will miss you here if you do go, but I understand the level of pressure that's on you these days. Just know that, no matter what you decide to do, I love you, my friend, as if you were my brother, and nothing will change that. Nothing can.

[thepozlife.livejournal.com]

I can't add anything more than what has already been said. We all know that you've been experiencing some very difficult and emotionally draining issues recently. I've enjoyed reading your journal but would understand if you decided to leave.

[bigreddee.livejournal.com]

I guess the main thing I am concerned with is that I see this as my offerings to my friends, a place I can rant or rave, and most of all a place that I can interact with what I have found to be an incredible group of people. I have made many friends here that I hope to see in person one day, and for that I am thankful. But friendships, whether in real life or in a textual base such as this, require energy and activity to cultivate and grow, something that in the past several weeks I just have been unable to come up with. Because of this, I feel truly awful.

First, don't feel awful. Your journal is not meant to entertain any of us. We've all got strife and things to focus on...no one's expecting a daily recap from you. And second, THIS IS YOUR JOURNAL. Comment when you want to (it's always nice to know someone's reading), and post when you feel it is appropriate. Write when you want to. But take it easy on yourself. Take a break from it. Or pick it up and vent. The other thing I think that helps is to occassionally do "private" posts, just for yourself. If you don't want to vent private feelings in a public forum, then write it down just for yourself and post it for yourself. That's what it's there for.

Big hugs, Phil...I like having the occasional post or comment from you, for what it's worth.

ditto...

[disccub.livejournal.com]

I just want to echo the sentiment shared my everyone else who commented on your posting. The impression that I have always gotten is that posting on LJ was not really for anyone else but yourself. It is a way for you to tell people what you want, when you want. Some of us post daily, some of us send mostly replies to other people's posts, some people post whenever the mood strikes them. Post when you feel like it. If you only want to lurk and read the posts of your LJ friends, only do that. If you want to post a comment now and then - go for it. If you want to type a list of names from the phone book as a way of practising your typing skills - fine by me. It is important, however, that you keep in mind that there are no requirements.

Peace!

[musicmanchicago.livejournal.com]

don't leave me daddy........

Hum

[arkanjil.livejournal.com]

theres nothing in the LJ Coda that says you hafta post, or at least post more than once a year or so. In fact, there is no Spoon. Er, Coda....

Browsing is fine babe, feel free; but see, I don't let the common rabble read about my dirty lil sex parties, now do I? There's a reason to keep an account right there, je?

[chastmastr.livejournal.com]

Oh, please stay, at least till I get to know you better. I'd love to meet you when you have more time; I know things have been busy and rough for you recently. But you seem like someone I'd like to meet in person...

HUGS

David in Arlington

[quickbear.livejournal.com]

Can't add much new to the comments made here. Would like to see you continue...

[gadgetguy.livejournal.com]

I may not comment in your journal with any frequency, but I do enjoy reading it...

There's nothing wrong with taking a break from LJ if you need it... That's the beauty of it, in fact -- LJ is here to serve you, not the other way around...

*HUGS*

[bearlover.livejournal.com]

No! Don't delete your journal. Just go on hiatus. I think it must be a phase thing. There are times when I feel like deleting my journal too but I inevitably get through the funk and start posting again. I like having you around. I don't like to choose favorites, but you are one of them ;)

OH My GOD! I didn't know you are on here!

[brinah.livejournal.com]

By all means keep your LJ! And welcome to mine!

I came across a comment you made to one of my friend's post, thinkin wow...that's a woofy guy..who is he...but with a vague notion that this guy looks familiar...

3 seconds later and BAM! But of course, It's my BIL's Hubby!

Now you can read all my dirty secrets.

-Bri