Decisions, decisions...

[greatbear]

Here once again I sit before my LJ with nothing of interest to write about. 99 percent of the time I read those in my friend's list and occasionally comment, but usually I am living life vicariously through the people here; actual friends and those whom I have never met (yet). My life, especially in recent weeks, is not worth documenting, it's mostly me on disability taking care of mom, and Jeff working, with very little in the way of notable goings-on. I don't bother with memes anymore, especially since some find them annoying and most recently the spyware fiasco with Quizilla. I dont want to bore people with minutiae, I prefer not to send deeply personal or private events into a public forum. I doubt people would be interested in the rebuilding of some small engines I have been involved with, the ants that are currently attacking the studio desk or the rapidly-overgrowing-with-weeds yard and gardens I am unable to tend like I need to.

So, it's come down to this... should I bother continuing with my Livejournal, or should I put it on indefinite hiatus, if not delete it altogether? I still want to keep in touch with the many fine folk here, as well as read and occasionally comment in all the fantastic journals that everyone keeps here. To do this in it's current form requires a journal of my own and a friend's list, unless I leave 'anonymous' comments (I dont want to do this). Recent entries by me rarely get reciprocal comments from me when others leave them, and that deprives my journal of the interactivity I would otherwise like to have within.

I think it best that I use this particular entry as a poll of sorts to those who catch my postings. Should I stay, or should I go? More precisely, should I just continue as I have been, with a rather stale, rarely updated journal, put it on 'hold' of sorts while I deal with other issues with the hope of getting back into it, or should I pull the plug on the whole thing? Please be honest, and let me know your feelings.

I guess the main thing I am concerned with is that I see this as my offerings to my friends, a place I can rant or rave, and most of all a place that I can interact with what I have found to be an incredible group of people. I have made many friends here that I hope to see in person one day, and for that I am thankful. But friendships, whether in real life or in a textual base such as this, require energy and activity to cultivate and grow, something that in the past several weeks I just have been unable to come up with. Because of this, I feel truly awful.

The ball's in your court.

Comments

[kjvbear.livejournal.com]

it is up to you, but I think you should stay. I enjoy reading your journal, and if you get pleasure out of just reading ours, thats fine too. Update when you can, even if it be mundane things. It is still a way not only to keep up with everyone one else, but for you to look back at later and say, "Oh yeah, thats what was happening back then."