Is it too much to ask...
Dec. 18th, 2004 12:34 am...for these blasted holidays to just be over already?
Ugh.
This is truly the first time I can say I lost that so-called Christmas spirit. This year has beat me up so much my ability to enjoy myself has almost been lost. I managed to go to a xmas party in NJ and had a good time, but that was simply due to being around good friends, not anything holiday-specific. My fleeting desire to travel during my windfall vacation evaporated in short order as the weather and the nonsense of this time of year set in. I would have been more useful at work. I have been making use of my time off by doing some things around the house that I didnt have the money for during my disability though, so there is a bright spot there.
Am I destined to be a crotchety old man, hateful of all around me, jealous of those enjoying themselves? If so, please kill me now.
In a related vein, I am beoming increasingly intolerant of people's stupidity, ignorance and thoughtlessness. If the preceeding is encountered on the road, there is potential accounts payable to hell. My mother got run off the road the other day, ripping the mirrors off her car and sending orange and white barriers flying. Had I been anywhere near that situation I seriously believe I would have caused severe harm to the person who did it. If not worse.
I often feel like an antipersonnel mine with a hair trigger. I guess I need a chill pill the size of Montana soon.
Ugh.
This is truly the first time I can say I lost that so-called Christmas spirit. This year has beat me up so much my ability to enjoy myself has almost been lost. I managed to go to a xmas party in NJ and had a good time, but that was simply due to being around good friends, not anything holiday-specific. My fleeting desire to travel during my windfall vacation evaporated in short order as the weather and the nonsense of this time of year set in. I would have been more useful at work. I have been making use of my time off by doing some things around the house that I didnt have the money for during my disability though, so there is a bright spot there.
Am I destined to be a crotchety old man, hateful of all around me, jealous of those enjoying themselves? If so, please kill me now.
In a related vein, I am beoming increasingly intolerant of people's stupidity, ignorance and thoughtlessness. If the preceeding is encountered on the road, there is potential accounts payable to hell. My mother got run off the road the other day, ripping the mirrors off her car and sending orange and white barriers flying. Had I been anywhere near that situation I seriously believe I would have caused severe harm to the person who did it. If not worse.
I often feel like an antipersonnel mine with a hair trigger. I guess I need a chill pill the size of Montana soon.
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Date: 2004-12-17 10:49 pm (UTC)We're sorry, those only come in suppository form.
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Date: 2004-12-17 11:14 pm (UTC)Finally... Someone is seeing it my way!
*Hugs*
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Date: 2004-12-18 12:12 am (UTC)One of my friends has a button on her dash that reads 'death ray'. It helps a bit...
Now that my nieces and nephew aren't kids anymore, I can get back to my humbug ways.
That doesn't mean I don't like the parties....!!!
You know...
Date: 2004-12-18 12:45 am (UTC)Feh. You kids these days...
Danger! Danger Will Robinson! Danger!
Date: 2004-12-18 05:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-18 07:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-18 08:50 am (UTC)I seldom ever get the so-called Christmas spirit. (Yeah, yeah, fine, alright, I was born Jewish. You know what I meant.) The obscene hypercommercialism ying and unbridled greed yang, the salvation army with their infernal bellringers, the tired old clichés surrounding you everywhere, the hell-sent children's choirs, the godawful music (Xmas music is bad; Chanukah music is an order of magnitude worse), the whole lot of it makes me nuts.
When I thought I was about to lose it the other day upon driving into a shopping centre parking lot adorned with stockings and with Xmas carols playing over low-fidelity horn speakers, I went in the grocery, piled a shopping trolley high with nutritious and nonperishable food, took it through the checkstand and dropped it all directly into the food bank collection box (after first making sure it was not a Salvation Army food bank). When I left the grocery, the parking lot's audiovisual pollution didn't seem so annoying any more.
I am beoming increasingly intolerant of people's stupidity, ignorance and thoughtlessness.
My brother! *HUG* *grin*
Wouldn't it be nice if concepts like "rude", "polite", "courteous", "coöperate" and "wait your turn", "think before you speak" and "think before you act" were still taught to the young (with intensive remedial immersion classes for the unyoung casualties of experimentation at the hands of EdD's)? I'd gladly take such a class if it meant everyone else had to, also. But then, I'd also happily give up my driver's licence and start all over again with proper and intensive training if it meant everyone else had to, as well.
I'm glad your mother's OK. (It would also be nice if mirrors weren't so damned expensive).
Some fuckwad, probably in a tow truck, flew down the road last week and smacked the LH sideview of my properly-parked truck hard enough to break the glass-to-arm bracket and send the convex blind spot mirror flying. Didn't stop, didn't leave a note, and it would've been impossible not to have heard the impact. A new one will cost me around $250 unless I want a shitty Chinese counterfeit piece, which I do not. Thoughtless and rude of the driver, yes. Thoughtless and self-centered of the idiot who had the street narrowed because it got him in good favour with a local politician, yes.
We're surrounded by it, and that shit rubs off. Mankind is allotted a certain fixed total amount of intelligence, and yet the population continues to expand. I haven't yet figured out how to deal with it effectively.
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Date: 2004-12-18 09:13 am (UTC)Drink up Darling!
Date: 2004-12-19 05:04 am (UTC)