Is it too much to ask...
Dec. 18th, 2004 12:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greatbear...for these blasted holidays to just be over already?
Ugh.
This is truly the first time I can say I lost that so-called Christmas spirit. This year has beat me up so much my ability to enjoy myself has almost been lost. I managed to go to a xmas party in NJ and had a good time, but that was simply due to being around good friends, not anything holiday-specific. My fleeting desire to travel during my windfall vacation evaporated in short order as the weather and the nonsense of this time of year set in. I would have been more useful at work. I have been making use of my time off by doing some things around the house that I didnt have the money for during my disability though, so there is a bright spot there.
Am I destined to be a crotchety old man, hateful of all around me, jealous of those enjoying themselves? If so, please kill me now.
In a related vein, I am beoming increasingly intolerant of people's stupidity, ignorance and thoughtlessness. If the preceeding is encountered on the road, there is potential accounts payable to hell. My mother got run off the road the other day, ripping the mirrors off her car and sending orange and white barriers flying. Had I been anywhere near that situation I seriously believe I would have caused severe harm to the person who did it. If not worse.
I often feel like an antipersonnel mine with a hair trigger. I guess I need a chill pill the size of Montana soon.
Ugh.
This is truly the first time I can say I lost that so-called Christmas spirit. This year has beat me up so much my ability to enjoy myself has almost been lost. I managed to go to a xmas party in NJ and had a good time, but that was simply due to being around good friends, not anything holiday-specific. My fleeting desire to travel during my windfall vacation evaporated in short order as the weather and the nonsense of this time of year set in. I would have been more useful at work. I have been making use of my time off by doing some things around the house that I didnt have the money for during my disability though, so there is a bright spot there.
Am I destined to be a crotchety old man, hateful of all around me, jealous of those enjoying themselves? If so, please kill me now.
In a related vein, I am beoming increasingly intolerant of people's stupidity, ignorance and thoughtlessness. If the preceeding is encountered on the road, there is potential accounts payable to hell. My mother got run off the road the other day, ripping the mirrors off her car and sending orange and white barriers flying. Had I been anywhere near that situation I seriously believe I would have caused severe harm to the person who did it. If not worse.
I often feel like an antipersonnel mine with a hair trigger. I guess I need a chill pill the size of Montana soon.
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Date: 2004-12-18 07:32 am (UTC)